Anxiety.

“This is the one of the most frustrating things about having an anxiety disorder; knowing as you’re freaking out that there’s no reason to be freaked out, but lacking the ability to shut the emotion down.” There are good days. There are great days. There are days where I am my worst enemy. Last night as I was tossing and turning in bed over analyzing everything, I started to think “WHY DO I KEEP DOING THIS TO MYSELF?” Here I am, finally happy. Finally going the right direction in life, yet my anxiety is going overtime trying to find that … Continue reading Anxiety.

30.

I am turning the big 3-0 in a little over 3 weeks and I’ll be completely honest, I am dreading it. It just makes me feel like I haven’t accomplished much in life. I always thought I’d be married with kids in my own home by now, but I am no where close to that. However, I can say that I have a good job and that I am with the person I will be spending the rest of my life with, so I guess that’s a good start. I was talking to his sister and her boyfriend and they … Continue reading 30.

Couples Q& A

I haven’t done one of these in a while and I saw one of my friends post it on her FB wall, so let’s just go ahead and do this.. Who’s older? Me. Who was interested first? Definitely me. But I’d like to say we both noticed each other the same time. Same High school? Nope. Most sensitive? Me. Worst temper? Probably me. I’d like to say he is pretty mellow. Who’s the funniest? Him, for sure. Who is the loudest? Him. He can’t even whisper. More social? Him. I hate people. Haha. Most stubborn? Me. Wakes up first? Me. … Continue reading Couples Q& A

Health and What-Not.

A couple of days before Hawaii, I noticed a change in my digestive schedule. I am pretty “normal;” however, a couple of years ago I was diagnosed with Ulcerative Colitis. Doesn’t sound fun, huh? Fun Fact: Ulcerative colitis is the result of an abnormal response by your body’s immune system. Normally, the cells and proteins that make up the immune system protect you from infection. In people with IBD, however, the immune system mistakes food, bacteria, and other materials in the intestine for foreign or invading substances. When this happens, the body sends white blood cells into the lining of the … Continue reading Health and What-Not.